Is it possible for me to feel more uncomfortable right now? Of course. Could I be feeling down that I'm three days after the due date and the usual 'warning' signs are no where to be seen? Sure. But what I want now is the same thing I wanted 9 months ago. A healthy and happy baby.
In the end all that matters is that this baby, whenever she decides to show up, arrives in the best of health. I can bare the sleepless nights, being uncomfortable at work, the achy pelvis, as long as it means that a healthy bambino is on the way.
What is more difficult to bare, than I had anticipated, is all the supportive inquiries about how I'm doing and where is the baby. I know people mean well, but I feel this tremendous, and overwhelming responsibility for the little one not arriving yet. Is it my mindset that's stopping her? Did I not eat the right things? Am I not active enough to move things along? I know there is no science to pinpointing the date. And there are no proven methods for naturally inducing labor. But everyone seems to have a suggestion. And in the end, I just feel like I must be doing something wrong if they're trying to encourage me to change a behavior.
My focus is on having a healthy baby, and I just have to be patient. In the mean time I have great friends and family that are trying to keep my busy and take my mind off things. Preventing boredom seems to be key right now. And hopefully I'll learn to just brush off all the "advise".
