The purpose of this blog is to focus on my toils to balance my life while keeping running in the picture. Today I'm going to diverge a bit because something has been bothering me. Without going into too much detail, I'm having trouble staying close to a few of my family members. By no means is this an admission of guilt. In fact, this is my record stating I'm trying to stay close and not lose important people. But I have recognized something interesting.
Since my relationship with these relatives is out of whack, I find that I've been trying to become closer to other friends and colleagues. Perhaps it's an attention thing, but I'm reaching out to friends I haven't spoken to in a while. I'm calling relatives that I normally wouldn't have a phone conversation with. I'm trying to be more social at work and not distance myself as much from the "chatty Kathy's". Perhaps it's because I'm a hormonal wreck from the pregnancy and I have this constant desire to be needed. Or maybe I'm just trying to fill the hole that others are leaving behind.
Whatever the reason, I don't dislike this behavior. I find that I'm being nicer to everyone around me. And for the first time I'm trying to be more inclusive. I'm not keeping secrets from everyone, and I'm letting the world in. I can only hope that this is just a transition time and people who are being distant will come around. But if they don't I will have made stronger connections to others in the meantime.
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